Season of change

"Play long enough, you never change the stakes. The house takes you. Unless, when that perfect hand comes along, you bet and you bet big, then you take the house." - Daniel Ocean

"Strange things are afoot at the Circle K." - Ted Theodore Logan

Big changes afoot here. I mean, I've been working at them for a couple of months, and I have several more weeks of work to do, and then there's a waiting period to find out if it will all come to pass as I hope it will, so there'll be no avian counting just yet, but today one of those intermediate pebbles fell into place, with a sound like a coin dropping into the washing machine. Clunk! A happy, definitive sound.

Something about getting the intermediate pieces accomplished, even when they're a bit of a slog, makes it seem more real to me. I might actually get to do this thing I've wanted to do for so long. And then this wild conversation I had last week, which unhinged some of my well-silted-over ideas, seems to be still percolating under there.

Wow, don't I sound mysterious? I don't mean to, honest. It's just that the details herein are rather private, and I'm not ready to share just yet.

But I can tell you, in broad outline, a few things more.

a) I didn't even realize how much I've been wanting to change the nature of what I do for work. I knew it on one level, but there are layers and layers and layers.
b) I've been looking at my time as a bit of a zero-sum game, and maybe that's not true. Maybe what feels like limited time and energy only feels that way because what I've been doing for a living saps my energy rather than energizing me.
c) I really, really like people who make me THINK.
d) I have a very big brain, and even though I don't trade on it in any social currency kind of way, it is occasionally really fun to take it out for a run.